(un)timezone

i want to be reminded why i came out & i want to be negated by the undulating synaesthetic waves that pass as a coherent theory & i want to be perceived only by other voids & i want to watch the embers of statism flow through our queer souls & i want to burrow in intricate queer analysis & i've never known what the hell i want & i want to be loved anyway & i want a bespoke (a)gender for every soul in the universe & i want the only state to be an eternal flow state & the only exchange economy to be the exchange of tired old pronouns for the new ones that make you want to live & i want to, usually, want to live & i want to feel warm and stimmy and still somehow insurgent & i want human interaction without the pressure of being human & i want labels that don't sound like diagnoses & i want to feel normal among everyone else who's ever felt weird & i want to still be anarchocurious after a lifetime in the (non)movement & i want to live a world that negates me back.